Sunday, 3 July 2011

最近,有个帅哥很有毅力地一直叫我update blog。。XD
哈哈哈。。也好啦。。可以让他读一读我的事。。
最近我也有读他的blog。。
他希望可以得到她的心。。
所以,一直以来,小心翼翼地将他那颗充满爱意的心收藏好。。
默默地付出。。从没放弃过。。
虽然嘴边整天说,算了,不可能的,放弃了,类似这样的话。。
可是,他的心还在等待。。
希望你可以加油!!

*PS.       我真得很想将你所为她做的,都说给她听。。>.<  笨蛋!!
                还有,谢谢你的夸奖。。我知道我很lenglui。。XDXD
                Soli 不要流口水了。。人家会不好意思的。。哈哈XDXD

真心话:谢谢你。。*shy*


可能我是一个比较脆弱的孩子。。
也可能我和他的状况不一样。。
我却因为怕自己会再受伤,所以一直避开他。。
阻止自己想起他。。
不过,我会努力让自己活得很好。。
这样才不会对不起自己。。^^

Thursday, 7 April 2011

想回去才知道自己是多么的笨。。
和以前一样,我是一个没什么尊严的小孩。。
以前的我从不在意人家的眼光。。
时隔几年了,我还是那个我。。
我向他表白的时候,不知道其他人是怎样想我的呢?
如今,我那么主动,不知道其他人又是怎样想我的呢?
他们会认为我太可悲了吗?
喜欢他的人,会讨厌我吗?
你。。会觉得难堪吗?

快乐的背后,总是隐藏着悲伤。。
只因主动的代价太大。。
我不知道我是否还能继续。。

Sunday, 27 March 2011

很乱

到底什么是爱?
两个人为了什么而在一起。。

你做了很多令我感动的事。。
可是,为什么我还是没和你在一起?
旁观者可能会觉得这很可惜。。
他可是百分白的爱你。。
可是,在我眼中,你只是又做一些事情感动我。。
当你目的达到了以后,一切又会变成原来的样子。。
可能,缺乏信任吧。。
不过,为什么有些人不管背叛了我多少次,我还是一直傻傻地信任他呢?
是因为我爱他吗?

到底我应该去选择一个他爱我,我不爱他的人。。
还是,一个不是很爱我,可是我很爱他的人呢?
哪一个选择才是最幸福的呢?
这个问题好像问过很多人,可是,还找不到答案。。
如果,我爱的人是他,也许烦恼就没这么多了。。
可是,我无法欺骗自己的心。。

总结来说,你是一个约束我心灵的人。。
如果你还没解脱,那么,我想我会为你一直受罪。。
我爱的人, 对不起。。

Tuesday, 15 March 2011

决定放弃了。。
不想去想太多了。。
也许这就是最好的结局。。
不过,
我还是想对你说声谢谢。。
因为,
你曾经让我心悸。。

Thursday, 10 March 2011

对不起

对不起。。是我误会你了。。
可是,我无法对你说声对不起。。
我突然觉得自己好糟糕。。可是,又觉得很高兴。。
心情好像有点复杂。。XDXD
还好高兴的心情好象比较多。。

虽然如此,我还是不能够排除你和另外女生flirt的事。。
我还是要把你这根蜡烛放远远。。
要不然,伤心的只是我而已。。

加油加油!!!
看我的blog的人也要加油哦!!^^
没错没错,是你啦。。XDXD

Saturday, 5 March 2011

为什么

我知道很难忘记
我真的不明白为什么你可以这样
我只能说一切都是假的
就当作我们从未认识吧
可能这样很小器
不过,我真得很想阻止自己的心情

世界上有很多种人,为什么你就偏偏是这种人?
爸爸说世界上所有的男生都是骗你的,除了爸爸
看来我真的要相信了
看你斯斯文文的,没想到你是这种人

我一直告诉自己要快乐
只要我快乐,你就伤害不了我
可是,我的心一直在帮你说好话
我真得很想知道你是怎样想的
为什么我会遇上这种人
不懂得去爱的人,是不会得到爱的

我一直找你
你可能会觉得。。oh...真的好烦哦
不理他,他又会骂我。。
我明明正在和。。。谈天啊
要不然你会想。。
我们是不可能的。。要如何拒绝你呢。。敷衍敷衍好了。。
难怪就觉得你有点敷衍

你说过,你想做自己,不去想太多
是你让人家想太多
为什么偏偏是我?为什么无缘无故成了你的目标?
如果我是一个不起眼的女生,我想你也不会接近我吧
为什么我的名字会出现在你身边?
如果我从没遇见你,哪有多好啊

我不会再对你放任何兴趣了
再见

Thursday, 3 March 2011

Disappointed

I never know you are this kind of person...
You are good...
but, you make yourself so pathetic...
I would never be this stupid anymore...
jia you to you...=.=

Wednesday, 2 March 2011

Decided...

I decided not to think about you anymore...
If i didn't contact you for long time nor hear about your news...
Even though it's hard...
Even though it takes time...
I would stop...
I hope the day that i treat you as friend will come....

Tuesday, 1 March 2011

Still moody

Today, i initiate to send a message to him..
He did reply... But, why am i still moody?
What's wrong with me?
I should give up...
He is nothing...
He is only a normal person..
He is not special at all...

I am not important to him anymore...
I am nothing to him too...
He doesn't care about my feelings anymore..
From the day i told him that i love him..
All changed drastically...
I tell you...i am not an easy woman...

but still, love you...

Finally...

Finally, i said sorry to him...and made him smile...
He replied me... okla...sama-sama smile..
After that, he didn't reply my message anymore...
hahaha...Nevermind~~
Anyway, I am not important to him anymore..

After 30 minutes, he replied my message suddenly..
>.< It relieved me...
Why do i keep being like this??
I will get insane!!!
He is just a friend of mine...
Don'y ttm...

Monday, 28 February 2011

My First Post

Recently, i was influenced by my friend to write blogs. Undeniably, blogging is getting more popular nowadays or i am the outdated one. However, thanks to my friend who allows me to vent my feelings here...Since this is the place i could vent my feelings.. I guess i will only write my bad news here..

Yes.. Today, my mood was not that good. That's why i started my blog.
He... is a guy who my heart tells me that it loves him so much.
I have no idea when it started.
When it tells me, it's too late to pull myself out of the abyss.
We were very close last time. It is different now. Everything has changed.

I know it was my fault that asked you what your heart tells you. I'm sorry.
But, can't you just reply me that you can't tell me?
You said you didn't notice my message, which i couldn't believe.
I know you were on fb, still you didn't reply.
Now only i know that my place in your heart is that small.
I felt like i am not even your friend.

Those words you said before...
Is that real? If it's real, why you treated me like that?
Too many questions that i couldn't ask you directly.
When the words you have said appear in my mind, my heart as if being sliced.
I don't want to believe that your words was a fake.
It's pain to make me decide.
But, i would like to decide that you are not even my friend either.